Ok I am posting this so that I can release the feeling I have had since I've started my On-the-Job Training.
Let's start where the problem is.
He asked me one time who is my crush. I was tongue-tied since I don't want him to find out that he is the one I was having a crush. He even said to myself that its ok who it is. So I used another name, just to deny that I have a crush on him.
Before my Birthday, me and my colleagues were celebrating it early. And it so happens that both of us are seating right each other. It was so awkward so I used my acting skills so that I wont look to obvious. We even had a selfie. When we were about to go home he suddenly slung his right arm on my shoulders. I also fooled around and do the same thing on him. Our colleagues took a picture of it like it was a scandal of a famous idol.(；一_一) They made fun of it but I just ignore them since I know they are only making fun of us.
Now, ever since they've rotated their schedule this February, something changed. He does greet me at first but as days goes by, he doesn't even look at me.
Last thursday, I was waiting for him in the office so we could go home together. Our schedule on that time is the same. But he suddenly disappeared and when I asked our other colleagues about him, they said he already went home. I went to the locker room and I saw him outside the boys locker room and HE ALREADY CHANGED HIS CLOTHES?! I asked him why he didn't wait for me he didn't answer.
The next day, I already went of to tge mall since I was already done with my duty. Suddenly, he texted me that they are coming. We met, of course. I was kinda annoyed why is he not talking to me. When I start a conversation, he kept his mouth shut.
The next day, I asked my colleague that has she noticed on what is he treating to me. Obviously, I ended up getting teased. But, HEY! I'm serious here! They just told me to ask him about it. I can't ask him on that day since it was his day off.
Sunday came and I RECEIVED A COLD TREATMENT FROM HIM! NO COMUNICATIONS AT ALL! Seriously?! I was on the verge of crying cause I am thinking that that I had done somethng wrong to him. I have this attitude that I cry when I had done something wrong and I will learn on the later part.
I've consulted my colleagues. They said that he is fine and when I think about it, HE IS HAVING A CONVERSATION TO EVERYONE EXCEPT ME?! WTH?!
I confronted him and asked if he has a problem with me . he said "No I am only busy". OKAY???? but how come you can have conversation to everyone? Am I nobody?
Tuesday, they told me that yesterday(it was my day off)that he is actually making a conversation to me. question, When? when you are excusing yourself cause you are going to pass?uhm.... okay?
now Why am I posting this....
I JUST WANT TO RELEASE MY TENSION BETWEEN YOU AND ME.
I couldn't stand being ignored when I haven't done anything wrong. If you hate me, JUST SAY IT! I wont resent you. I just wanna know why you are doing this. I am sensitive when it comes to these things. I can't stand the fact that we are friends and you suddenly change your behaviuor towards me.
I also hate the fact that I am falling for you. I wanna make this stop before its too late.
I can't post this on Facebook for there are a lot of people who are checking on it especially my family. They don't know anything about this.
note: not edited, typo errors may exist.